you are not alone….

the song ‘lost’ has essentially haunted me since october of 2007.  it was the day of my son’s 3rd birthday party and i got a phone call from a brother-in-law saying he would not attend.  then as the rest of the family members shuffled in, i learned from a sister-in-law that her sister (albeit wife of the above mentioned brother-in-law) was not coming either.

a bit later i found out they were on the verge of disaster-unknown to the rest of us they were living seperately in the same house, with their 4 kids.  and everytime i heard the song ‘lost’ i thougth of my sister-in-law.  of how if her husband had the sentiments expressed in these lyrics, they would reconcile.

it took a long time to be ok with this memory jog- every single time i listened,  my heart broke a bit more.

just recently my thinking has evolved–and i came to this conclusion:

lost is for everyone, not just romantic couples.  if you listen closely you can hear it….i now begin to think of  my husband’s relationship with this same sister.  he is loyal, he will not leave her, he will always be there for her, if he knew she was crying-he’d console her; he carries part of her burden through all that has occurred and he will remain as a beacon of strength for her  until the days brighten. 

now if she would just learn to lean on him, trust in her brother, and realize he is not the man that left her; but a better man than her soon to be ex-husband ever was.  life works in strange ways…at least i can begin to enjoy the song again knowing there is hope, and maybe oneday, when i feel like sharing-i’ll email her the link or print the page…..but until then she has to find this out on her own.

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~ by bottsbuble on November 4, 2009.